His Call To Me

I was told in youth group that judgment day is based on whether I accomplished my calling that the Lord set in place for me to do.

I question daily what my calling is. I pray to God that he will open my eyes and let me see it. But, I still don't know.

Lately, I've felt as though I don't here God, that I need to grow in him, and focus on him every day. It's nagging at my mind constantly to focus on him, to do whatever I can to learn more. It made me sad to think about it because I thought I was growing apart from God. And I don't want to do that! It scares me to even think that I would. Then, I thought today about my calling. It occurred to me that maybe this is what he's wanting me to do? Is this what you're trying to tell me, Lord?

So, in turn, I tried finding things that I could do to grow. But, it wasn't working. Nothing kept my attention. I don't know what to do when the nagging feeling continues. What do I do? What is God trying to tell me? Does anyone know?

Recently I started reading the book Driven by Eternity by John Bevere. I'm not that far into it but everything he's written is deep and true. It's keeping my attention. I love the book so far. It means a lot to me and I still require more of myself to find more ways to grow in Christ. If anyone has any suggestions please, feel free to tell me. I want my relationship with him to grow.

Thanks!