To start off, as you all know, I'm shy. I hate doing things in front of people from talking in a play to dancing.
But this great, deep desire to sing for an Easter special took over. The desire was so heavy that when I was told no, I was depressed. To be honest, I was angry, so angry I left music practice. I had been wanting to sing for many Sundays but the chance never came. I prayed God would help me gain the spot in which I desired.
Then, God gave me the chance. I had the ability to sing a part in The Easter Song by Keith Green. I am a high singer. And the part in the song that I received was extremely high. So high, in the beginning, I cracked without the lessons I received from my teacher, Dad, and Mom. I reached the high note with ease during the practices until the day of the special came.
We practiced the special one last time before the final act. We practiced and I knew I was not ready or felt that way. I was afraid. I didn't want to mess up, especially at the very high note. I prayed all through worship, as I was playing the piano, that the Lord would give me the ease and ability to do what troubled me. You see, when singing, when I get nervous I start to shake. Not only my hands but also my voice which would cause my ability to reach the high note very slim.
I prayed and prayed none stop. I prayed while my dad gave his prayer before our special. I wasn't ready I thought to God. Help me, please! I'm scared.
Then, the greatest thing happened...
I heard this voice in my head say "You can do this" and all feelings of nervousness and doubt subsided. I instantly felt at peace. I knew I could do it. I knew then and there God touched me, told me I could do it, that he believed in me. And right there, those four words, I believe in you, raised this giant weight off my shoulders.
I walked up onto that stage with a purpose. To sing out to the Lord. To sing for my family but most importantly show how much God touched me. To show the great peace and love I receive from him. I reached that high note with ease. God gave me the ability to be free of my nervousness.
If God can help one simple situation such as this, imagine what he could do with so much more! You could become president, speak with ease to the country, with a sense of ease, holding the Lord's hand as he guides you. So much can be done with the grace, love, and fear of God! Oh, how I love you, Lord! You're all I need in life!
Psalm 23 states:
A Psalm of David.
23 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters.
3 He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies;
you anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.
(Thank you bible gateway)
The Lord is my Shepherd, I am his sheep. He will lead and guide me to all that is necessary to him. And through this, I will gain freedom from him. I will gain an eternity with him in paradise. Imagine it, a life with God in Heaven, eternal peace and paradise. I can't wait for that day to come!
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
God, what would I do without you?
